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I’m married (second time) with three children (mine and his), eleven grandchildren (mine, his, theirs, those, these), one great-grandchild, and an always changing number of foster-grands. Life is, well, grand!
My husband, Larry, and I live in Arkansas with our dog, Mert.
In 2005, I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. I remember thinking, “What am I supposed to do with that?” After second and third opinions, I found myself sorting through conflicting diagnoses and some very uncertain prognoses.Life hasn’t always seemed grand.
Being a problem solver, I planned for the worst scenarios. I consulted carpenters about handicap-friendly changes in our home, created a plan for easier personal care, quit my job, and cleared my schedule. Then I sat and waited.
My physical condition improved. Hmm. I hadn’t planned for that. Was this temporary? Was there a significant setback in my future? What would it look like? Would I ever work again? Focusing on the uncertainties turned me into an emotional mess.
After a long and bitter pity party, I finally confronted the Great Physician.
“Dear God. Why? This is too big for me.”
“My child. Every breath you take, every step you make comes from Me. Everything concerning you is from Me and for Me.”
“Well, then God, you deal with it. I’m moving on.”
He didn’t have a problem with that. He reminded me that he is God, Creator, Counselor, and King. Me? I am his child.
Admittedly, surrendering my preconceived idea of what life was supposed to look like was difficult. Burying the notion that I had control of anything went against every grain in my take-charge personality. I guess that’s why Paul’s conversation with God stays on the forefront of my mind. Here’s what God’s response was when he asked the Almighty to remove a thorn in his life.
“Each time he said, ‘My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.’ So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses so that the power of Christ can work through me. That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” II Corinthians 12:9-10 (NLT)